Ruby Ryder is Out of Jail

Ruby Ryder used to like dix

I received the below  message about Ruby Ryder on a previous post I wrote about her being locked up on drug charges.  According to the eloquent “best friend” of Ruby Ryder she is now out of jail, clean and sober, and no longer hiding the salami for a living.  Good for her!

hey asshole, for your info ruby is one of my best friends and she has been sober for a very long time. and actually turned her self in for 10 days and is already back out (STILL NOT BACK IN THE PORN INDUSTRY) so i would advise you to get correct information before you exploit it out on the web. With her license back and sobriety still in check i think you should be ashamed of yourself for being an ignorant piece of shit.

toodles

Interview with Anti-Porn Advocate Shelley Lubben

Shelley Lubben

I recently conducted an interview with Shelley Lubben who went by the name Roxy while she was an active adult performer in the mid-90’s.  Since leaving sex work, Shelley has become one of the most outspoken critics against the porn industry and has established the Pink Cross Foundation to help porn addicts and adult performers.  Shelly and I discussed her past, the struggles she endured as a porn performer, and her recovery.

Where and when were you born?

May 18, 1968 in Pasadena, California

What was your family life like early on?

My early childhood was pretty uneventful. I grew up in a middle class family. I was a Brownie, attended Sunday School and was very creative. I was an extremely energetic child and my mother says raising me was like raising twins.

I felt my parents ignored me and I began to make up stories like men were trying to kidnap me when I walked to school in order to get their attention. My Dad worked a lot and loved his garage.

What was your childhood like? Were you happy?

I was bored most of the time. My parents weren’t very involved in my life and much of the time I was on my own hanging out in the neighborhood. I was often writing and directing my own plays and skits beginning at age seven where I would invite neighborhood kids to come and watch.  My 1^st grade teacher told my mother I was a creative genius and my mother replied, “Oh yes she’s very peculiar.” The teacher told her I should be put into a creative program. My mother didn’t “get it”. I was never developed and grew up very frustrated. I was left to myself and began to get into trouble.

By age 9 I was sexually abused by a teenage boy and his sister, a classmate of mine. I had my first lesbian experience at that time. I was horrified. Immense shame and guilt followed me well into my adult years. I began masturbating at 9 years old. I looked for love in boys and realized if I gave them sex they would tell me how special I was. I longed for my parents, especially my father, to notice me and give me affection but he was a workaholic. My mother was a religious nag and drove me crazy. My family spent most of our quality time together in front of the TV so I grew up with people like Jack Tripper and Lucy Ricardo as my role models.

I was writing short stories and poetry beginning at age 8. I played guitar at age 9. I was very creative and musical.

My family attended church the first 8 years of my life and then we stopped going. I loved Sunday School and what I learned still remains with me to this day.

When I was around 7 Jesus told me I would be working for Him some day and He showed me a vision of me speaking to thousands of people in an arena. I was sure someday I would be a preacher and an author. Those were my childhood dreams.

Looking back, is there anything that happened in your childhood that made you turn to the adult industry?

Yes, one of the factors that ultimately led me to be in the adult industry was sexual abuse. The other factor was lack of parenting and proper child development.

At what age did you first start using drugs and alcohol?

Age 16 I started drinking and dabbling in drugs.

I read somewhere that you become involved in prostitution at a young age. How did that come about?

I was a prostitute right out of high school after I barely graduated. I was 18. I got pregnant by a client the following year and had a baby girl in June, 1988.

Shelley on an adult box cover in the mid-90's

How did you first become involved in the porn business?  How old were you?

I was 24 years old when a woman told me I should do porn and would make much more money. By this time I was exhausted from stripping and prostituting so porn sounded better. I was wrong. Nobody told me I would catch an STD. They gave me a false sense of security telling me if I tested I would be safe.

Describe the first time you filmed an adult scene. What do you remember about the experience?

I remember big red doors that led me to a very dark and seedy place where I saw a couch with sexy pillows and lighting all around it. Naked people walking around. A pornographer looked me up and down and asked for my HIV test and my i.d. At the time they didn’t test for anything else. It was a lesbian scene mostly with one guy. We were told to be college girls and have sex with each other. I was not at all interested in having sex with a woman I didn’t know. I was very nervous although I hid it. They asked me my stage name and I had been to the Roxy the night before so I just said, “Roxy” on the spot.

I went into the back, changed  my clothes and downed a bunch of Jack Daniels. They called my name to do my scene and I felt really awkward. I kept trying to figure out if I should shake hands with someone I was about to have sex with or how should I greet them? No one to really guide me.

The director explained what he wanted out of the scene. Nobody checked each others’ tests. I didn’t know we were supposed to do that. I was very nervous and was more focused on what the hell I was about to do. The scene started and something came over me, something very dark. I just started going crazy and took over the scene out to prove I was the best. The scene ended and they threw a rag at me to clean the “stuff” off my face. I felt totally humiliated and disgusting and had tears in my eyes but I turned my head to hide them and told myself to suck it up.

During the scene the producer kept cheering me on and saying things like, “Wow you’re going to be the next big porn star. I never saw anybody give a *** like that. You are so hot Roxy”….blah blah blah. I was desperate to be noticed and so the attention was like a drug for me. I was desperate for attention. Of course the fast money was a major attraction.

After the scene the producer told me he was setting me up with a big producer where I would be doing pro movies with people like Peter North, Nikki Sinn, Ron Jeremy…. I was thinking no way would I do another movie but I really believed I had no other option. I was a single parent and totally burned out from stripping and prostitution. I took the bait and next thing you know I’m doing whatever they asked me to. I had something to prove and they KNEW I would prove it. I had to prove I was better than everyone else so I did very hardcore scenes early on in my so-called career.

You are very anti-porn these days. What are some of the negative things that you witnessed during your time in the adult business?

Where do I start. I saw and participated in drug use. We stood around naked waiting for our scene outside in the backyard where we were filming in and smoked pot and sniffed meth, coke, and whatever else was available. We got drunk in the back rooms or high in the bathroom. Some pornographers said no drugs but that just meant no drugs near the “set”.

I saw girls crying their eyes out and screaming like maniacs. I remember when I was just new I thought to myself “Why are the women so bitchy?” I found out later why of course. I saw women vomiting while their heads were forced up and down some guy’s large penis. I was one of them who gagged and vomited several times on set even though I put my hand up to stop them. They didn’t stop. I saw pornographers make women do scenes they didn’t agree to and threaten them if they didn’t. I was one of them. I experienced disgusting work conditions where rags of crap, pee and blood were thrown on the floor next to where we were “acting”. Women had hair pulled and faces smacked. We were called whore, bitch, cunt, slut and the list goes on. I was forced to do a scene I did not agree to. The pornographer threatened me and I was so naïve about it all that I actually thought he would and could sue me. I remember being very sore that day after doing so much anal sex.

I saw and experienced torn body parts. I saw used sponges and enemas on the floor in the bathroom. NOTHING was ever sanitary. The industry was and is still totally unregulated and operating ILLEGALLY according to Cal Osha’s Adult Film Standards which you can read at http://www.dir.ca.gov/DOSH/AdultFilmIndustry.html . I also saw and experienced a lot of prostitution. Pornographers set us up and we flew around the country to have sex with high dollar clients. They often expected sex without a condom and paid us enough money to do it.

Shelley Lubben

According to the IAFD (Internet Adult Film Database) you only appeared in about a dozen films over a couple of years in the industry. Do you feel like you were involved in adult films long enough to form an accurate opinion about the entire industry?

I appeared in more than a dozen films. The IAFD doesn’t list them all and also some of them are too old or too amateur to be listed.

I was in the porn industry and lived the lifestyle about 2 years. That’s long enough. Between prostitution, pornographers and performing I definitely received a big taste of the porn industry. And I have the herpes and early cervical cancer to prove it.

Your life was obviously headed in the wrong direction before you started doing porn, so do you feel like porn made it any worse? Was your recovery more difficult because you were involved with pornography than say if you were just a stripper and a prostitute?

Yes porn made it worse. The porn industry attracts and lures in people who are damaged and damages them more. They lure in the sexually exploited because they are vulnerable and will agree to be more sexually exploited. Anyway, it’s all about money. None of us enjoys making porn. It’s extremely traumatizing and hard work. There are over 100 porn stars easily who have confessed in interviews or their blogs how hard making porn is. Anyone can go online and find this information. Not to mention all the deaths in the last 20 years or even the last couple years from HIV, Suicide, Drug overdose and Homicide. No other industry kills more people due to the negative effects I just mentioned than the porn industry.

Yes, my recovery was harder due to making hardcore movies. I did things in porn I never did in prostitution.

What were some of the negative consequences you experienced personally from performing in adult films?

Herpes. Early Cervical Cancer where half of my Cervix had to be removed. Three pregnancy losses due to porn. One of them entopic and two were miscarriages. My reproductive system was very damaged after I did porn. I did prostitution 6 years and used a condom and never caught an STD. STDS lead to cervical cancer and other reproductive damage.

I also was diagnosed with mental disorders and had major emotional problems that took 8 years of hard work to recover from.

You have spoke in the past about the illusion of porn. Tell the readers about that.

Yes I have spoken about the lie of porn on the web, tv, radio interviews, churches, government and secular organizations since 2004. Since then more than a dozen other women and men have joined me and spoken out as well. And the cause grows as more and more people contact us for help and want to speak out. Every month a porn performer joins our cause and speaks out against the porn industry.

Shelley Lubben founder of the Pink Cross Foundation

There are some women who are adamant that they enjoy performing in adult films and are able to express themselves sexually by performing. What would you say to them?

I love you but bullshit. Then I would try to get them to open up and share their history and background with me which often causes porn stars to run away. Funny how they hate to talk about their childhood and history.

Remember, it’s ALWAYS about the money, not sexual expression. If it’s about sexual expression then why don’t porn stars ever work for free?

What are some statistics you have about the adult film industry?

I have been researching the porn industry for about three years and share statistics below. I can’t even keep up with all the deaths happening lately. So sad.

http://www.shelleylubben.com/index.php?truth=porn

See stats on the left. If you just want quick stats you can visit www.thepinkcross.org and they are on the right. You may check out my blog for recent deaths.

What caused you to give up making adult films? What was the final straw for you personally?

HERPES!

What was the hardest thing about walking away from adult entertainment?  What was the most difficult thing to give up?

The money $$$. The attention.

After leaving porn did you continue using drugs and working as a prostitute?

I did try to go back to prostitution but it was short lived due to me infecting a married couple with Herpes and being a total wreck due to increased drug and alcohol use in the porn industry. There were LOTS and LOTS of parties I went to where drugs and alcohol were in abundant supply and given freely. Pornographers also loved to give us drugs and alcohol. Good for business if we were intoxicated because then WE WOULD DO ANYTHING.

Have you been diagnosed with any mental disorders?

Yes. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Impulse Control Disorder, Alcohol Dependence, Depressive Disorder and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I was prescribed zoloft, sleeping pills, lithium and counseling.

Most recovering addicts describe a definite low point in their lives. When did you hit rock bottom?  When did you realize that you had to change your life?

I hit rock bottom several times but was spared by God. I overdosed and tried to commit suicide several times in my 8 year involvement in the sex industry. One suicide attempt and overdose was right after I caught Herpes. That was rock bottom for me.

How long after leaving the adult film business did you clean up your life? Was it though Christ or therapy? Or both?

Right after I left I made a serious decision to really seek God whose love and faithfulness was revealed to me through Jesus Christ. The Bible says those who diligently seek God find Him and I really did find Him, met Him in a very personal way and He did everything His book said He could do. He healed me from substance abuse, mental disorders, emotional disorders, flashbacks, horrible memories and healed my mind and THEN even did above and beyond and blessed everything my husband and I set our hands to. It’s like I won the lotto. That’s how GOOD God is. People think He’s mean and doesn’t care but they just don’t know Him. They haven’t even tried to get to know Him. Unfortunately the church has done a terrible job at revealing God to people. I am not a church person. I am Christian who believes in love and serving people that I might compel them to step into the Light and live the life they were truly meant to live. A life of purpose, meaning and beauty.

I tired therapy but didn’t work. I don’t think they were prepared to help someone like me. They prescribed me the medication listed above and made me watch anger management videos.

When did you first start working to help porn performers?

Women started contacting me in 2005. It was hard to go back to the industry after so many years. It had changed so much. It’s worse now. It’s much bigger now. I started really going after the porn stars and reaching out to them on the web in 2006 and I began to get response after response from girls telling me how screwed up the industry is and that their agent fucked them over and so and so ripped them off and how they caught HPV or another STD. Some had their cervixes removed at age 22! Some were force fed meth and slapped and spit on. Horror story after horror story and I became enraged. I knew I had to do something about it.

Shelley Lubben

Having been involved in prostitution longer than you were an adult actress why is it that your main focus is on porn these days? Why don’t you focus more on helping prostitutes?

That’s not my calling. I only do what my Father tells me to and when it’s truly the work of God, it is successful.  This is the first time in history so many women and men have left porn and are also speaking out.

Do you feel like prostitution is a larger problem since there are more women involved in prostitution than porn?

Porn stars ARE prostitutes. Porn IS prostitution and DOES involve prostitution so it’s all the same problem. Agents are pimps and porn stars are prostitutes.

http://www.lukeisback.com/essays/essays/prostitution.htm

Do you feel like the viewers of pornography are victims as well?

Absolutely.

Some girls in the industry claim to live healthy, happy lives. Do you think that there are drug-free, well adjusted adult performers anywhere out there or are all porn performers miserable?

I haven’t met one yet. I’d love to.

Porn has become a big business. Used to almost every performer walked away from the business empty handed. These days there are a select few that walk away millionaires or at least very wealthy. What would you say about them? Is it possible that porn has made some lives better?

No, it just means they get to live a little more luxurious. They pay the same ugly price. Maybe a bigger price since they are now stuck in a luxurious life style they have to pay for.

Do you think that the mainstream entertainment industry exploits women in some of the same ways the porn industry does?

No, not the same way. They aren’t forced to gag on some guy’s penis or being slapped in the face while called a whore. They also don’t risk their lives physically like porn performers do. Even Dr. Sharon Mitchell confesses that 66% of porn performers are Herpes carriers. We don’t hear statistics like that in the mainstream entertainment industry. Statistics show the death rate in the porn industry due to HIV, Suicide, Drug overdose and Homicide is more than the mainstream entertainment industry. It’s not hard to add the numbers up.

We are a society obsessed with sex. Some of your critics would argue that the problems you expose are part of a broader more cultural problem. What do you say to that?

I agree. We definitely have a huge sexualized culture thanks to the porn industry. Companies like Playboy glamorized it and exposed us to it and others followed.

When did you start the Pink Cross Foundation?

It officially began on January 24, 2009 but took a little over a year to do the legal paperwork and set up business.

Tell the readers what the Pink Cross Foundation is all about?

Pink Cross Foundation is a faith-based IRS approved 501(c)(3) public charity dedicated to reaching out to adult industry workers offering emotional, financial and transitional support. We largely focus on reaching out to the adult film industry offering support to porn stars. Pink Cross Foundation also reaches out to those struggling with pornography offering education and resources to recover.

How can adult film performers and addicts contact you?

Porn performers can contact me at help@thepinkcross.org and porn addicts can get help at www.thepinkcross.org where we offer a free web site membership where they can receive help from the Pink Cross Team which is made up of recovering porn addicts, ex porn stars and ex drug users and on and on. We’re a bunch of Ragamuffins who have been there and care.

Tell the readers about your life today.

Shelley Lubben and her husband

I’m a mother of three beautiful and healthy daughters. I live in Bakersfield, California, in a nice home my husband and I own. My husband and I are ordained Chaplains who love to help porn stars and porn addicts and pretty much anyone who crosses our path. I fight porn. I attend a University where I am pursuing my Bachelor’s Degree in Theology/Counseling. I love gardening and roses are my specialty. I study great reformers and American History.

How long have you been married?

I have been married 14 years since Feb. 14, 1995. I married a Pastor’s son who loved a beat up and broken sex worker.

Do you still struggle with your past or have temptation to return to your old lifestyle?

I don’t struggle with my past but I admit my present is pretty stressful. No, I do not have temptation to go back into sex work. The grass on the other side really is greener.

How long have you been clean and sober?

I got clean the minute I turned back to God in 1994 thanks to the Cross of Jesus Christ. Sobriety didn’t happen until 2000.

What would you say to a girl who is considering appearing in adult films?

Don’t do it. You are made for greater things than porn. And everything I wrote above.

Is there anything you would like to promote or websites you would like to tell the readers about?

I’d love to!

Pink Cross Foundation at www.thepinkcross.org

My personal web site at www.shelleylubben.com

Any final words you would like to say?

Yes, to the porn stars.

I love you. I love you. I love you. I’m here for you.

Shelley Lubben

Shelley on an adult box cover in the mid-90’s

Shelley Lubben

Shelley Lubben founder of the Pink Cross Foundation

Shelley Lubben

Shelley Lubben and her husband

An Interview with Kay Parker

Kay Parker Today

Kay Parker is one of the most well known actresses to ever preform in adult film.  She is a classic beauty who starred in numerous adult titles during the golden age of porn in the late 70’s and early 80’s.  Kay was always known for both her acting ability and sexual prowess.  She is most famous for her role in the classic porn flick Taboo and some of its sequels.

I recently caught up with Kay for a short interview to see what she has been up to for all these years.  I was pleasantly surprised to find that she is living a very interesting life and had a lot to talk about.

You were born in Birmingham, England.  When did you first come to the United States?

I arrived in 1965 after having spent two or more years living in Germany. It had always been a goal to master another language, a goal I fulfilled while I was there.

What was your life like as a child?  Where did you grow up?

I grew up post World War 2 in a very cold and depressed England as the country struggled to rebuild after the war. In my memory there were no colors, just grey. I remember food rationing and extreme scarcity. My Father raised us under the banner of “Children should be seen and not heard,” and “Don’t speak unless spoken to.”

Kay Parker early in her career

How did you first become involved in the adult entertainment business?

I met John Leslie who introduced me to Robert McCallum and I took a small non-sex role in “V-The Hot One.”

What factors in your life lead to your decision to perform in adult films?

There were many of which I talk about in my book, but for this interview, suffice it to say that number one, there was a fascination with the art of film-making and number two,  a deeply rooted yearning to get free, to peel off my layers and to know myself. I saw this as an opportunity to do that.

What did you like best about performing in front of the camera?

I had spent a year in an intense acting workshop prior to meeting John and this was an opportunity to put my tools to use, as it were. So, there was great satisfaction in performing and portraying characters for me.

Any favorite actors you enjoyed working with more than others?

Several of the men I worked with were real gentlemen, including Eric Edwards and Herschel Savage, John Leslie of course and the incomparable Richard Pacheco.

Sometime in the mid-80’s you gave up performing in adult films.  Can you tell us what the reasons were behind your decision to quit performing?

There were several factors, my age (even though I could have continued, I opted out,) and of course, the AIDS epidemic. Beyond those reasons, the video age had arrived, film budgets had dropped, and videos were being shot in one or two days and were just sex scenarios. The industry I had known, where we shot on film, had lengthy scripts and multiple takes of a scene with room to develop characters disappeared. I couldn’t bring myself to participate any longer. It was time to leave.

Kay Parker

I also have read that you directed one title before leaving the adult business for good, Tantric Guide to Sexual Potency, in 1994.  What was it like to be on the other side of the camera and why did you not continue to direct?

Yes, this was a project that I cared for because of the content. I had always been concerned with putting love back into sex – this was in fact my logo during those years. In Tantra – which is the yoga of sex, the emphasis is on breathing and the focus is on divine union through sexual interaction. The focus on the orgasm is diminished opening up the space for a deep spiritual union which can be transcendental and beautiful beyond words.  I didn’t continue to direct because it was time for me to get on with my other work…my counseling and spiritual mentoring work.

Do you have any regrets about your career in adult film?

No regrets  – I see every experience as an opportunity and, within that notion, higher purpose prevails. In life, it’s important to see the bigger picture, as if looking at the tapestry of all the events in our lives and their outcome from a higher vantage point. This is challenging for most people, but through choosing to see the bigger picture, one has the opportunity to move out of any semblance of martyr or victim consciousness.

Do you keep in touch with any people from the adult industry?  Any actors, producers or directors?

I keep in touch with a few, those I had a heart connection with…Seka, Mr. Pacheco, Veronica Hart and Kelly Nichols.

When did you first become involved in new age philosophy?

I began to pursue my belief in an alternative reality and way of life over 30 years ago when I lived in Northern California and during the time of my film career.

Briefly explain in general what you belief system is all about.

It’s simple, take care of yourself, and take care of others and the environment.  Beyond that, know who you are as a divine being, as a soul having a human experience on a path which is eternal and focus on that, as opposed to the status quo.

You believe in re-incarnation of the soul.  Tell us more about that.

That’s way too lengthy to talk about here. Suffice it to say that each of us is on a journey that extends way beyond this lifetime. In order to understand this, one has to move beyond fear, doubt, trepidation and our experiences in our lifetime which have wounded us.

Kay Parker

I have had roughly 186 lifetimes in this quadrant of time. While I have documented many of them, there are particular lifetimes that are highly significant and relevant to the here and now.  When I work with individuals I am focused on that aspect of their past – what is relevant to a person’s current life experiences and challenges.

For me, the main focus has been on deep forgiveness of “perceived errors of the past” and releasing those memories, in addition to the realization of the fulfillment of commitments made long ago to be here now and to participate in what truly is a monumental time on our planet and humanity’s transition.

I read a little bit about “star beings” on your website.  What is a star being?

There are a certain number of individuals alive today (in the millions) who have experienced life on other planets before incarnating here. To some way of thinking they are the proverbial “old souls” because they have in fact, had a longer journey than newer souls, culminating here, now.  In terms of their soul contract, they are committed to applying themselves in a very significant way to our planet’s evolution. They will, at some point, wake-up to their soul essence and recognize their true identify, instead of just plodding along, submitting to the conditioning of the cultural, societal and familial mores.

What kind of services do you offer via your website, http://www.starsourceonline.com/

I am a spiritual mentor, meaning that I work with an individual to assist them to recognize their mission and to assist in the healing of their emotional scars, to help them to put their life circumstances in perspective and assist them to move out of guilt, shame, fear, hopelessness, indifference and a multitude of other emotional limitations and/or blocks.

What could someone expect that purchases services on your website?  What type of person should be interested in a session with you?

First of all, they may expect to be surprised. I say that because, for me, my work is  ultimately about love – and offers a person the opportunity to open their hearts to a more elevated way of being where love takes precedence, where love is the guiding force and where love opens doors never opened before. If a person wants to experience that, and is willing to grow in terms of loving themselves by taking the first step towards healing and balancing their past, their life may change in ways that may be extraordinary. Key word here is choice, a person must first choose.

Having been an adult actress for several years, sexuality has played a major role in your adult life.  How does sexuality factor in to your belief system and does it continue to play a major role?

Sexuality has played a role for me in terms of opening doors to my true work, here, now. From my career came a wealth of information about sexuality and, more specifically, a deep understanding of the dynamics of sexual shame. Back when I was acting, the Internet didn’t exist and I couldn’t possibly have known that I would have a website and a global doorway to making available my services.  In my personal life it’s a very, minor issue.

Taboo

You wrote a book in 2001 titled, Taboo: Sacred, Don’t Touch, please tell the readers what the book is about and where they can purchase the book.

I wrote the book (which I began 10 years before I published it) at the urging of others. In public presentations and lectures, I had used anecdotal stories from my career to illustrate what I had learned, not only about myself, but about the entire area of sexuality. It seemed only natural that a biographical book should follow, but when it came down to it, to be true to myself, I had to tell the whole story – the bigger picture – and that meant including past lives. This is why I subtitled the book “A Biographical Journey spanning Six Thousand years.”  The book is available in audio (read by me) or text form on my website www.starsourceonline.com .  At the moment, I don’t have hard copies available.

Are you currently married or have you ever been married?

No and No.

Do you have any children?

No.

Where do you live?

I live in southern California, outside Los Angeles

Outside of your beliefs and profession what do you like to do for fun?  What are your hobbies or interests?

I am a movie buff and I love good music. I love to walk and enjoy the wonderful Pacific Ocean. All my other activities relate in some way to my work, which is my life.

Is there anything you would like to say to your fans?

I am always in awe of the generosity of my fans. Each time someone connects with me, I am grateful.  I encourage you to not be shy about learning more about who you are, to embrace their higher purpose and to be willing to deeply connect to your soul’s mission. I’m here to help.  If my assistance can make the difference between a life lived with quality and meaning, fulfillment and passion, I encourage you to make the investment.  Blessings.

Kay Parker

Kay Parker

Kay Parker early in her career

Kay Parker

Taboo

Marilyn Chambers’ Cause of Death Determined

Marilyn Chambers

After weeks of listing the cause of death of Marilyn Chambers as “natural causes”, the Los Angeles coroners office has now reported that she died from complications related to heart disease.  Chambers was found dead in her Los Angeles area home by her daughter back in April.

The toxicology tests ran at the time of her death confirmed that Marilyn suffered a cerebral hemorrhage and aneurysm related to heart disease.  The tests also showed that she had traces of the painkiller hydrocodone and the antidepressant Citalopram in her bloodstream but not at levels to cause death.

http://www.reuters.com/article/lifestyleMolt/idUSTRE54H6G720090518

Lori Michaels is Alive

Lori Michaels

Back in 2007 rumours began to swirl that ex-Vivid girl Lori Michaels had died from a rare heart defect.  There was no confirmation and there was much speculation that the reports were just rumors or that Lori had faked her own death.  I wrote a post about Lori and her supposed death in November of that year.

Over a year and many post comments later someone claiming to be Lori left a comment.

She wrote:

“I wish you all would stop saying I’m dead. Now lets get a few things straight. I’m not married and have never been married. I hate fucking swingers and have never been a swinger. Some sites used to use my pic in swinger ads, etc, but I could never control all of that. I never read so many stupid comments from people who never knew me but seem to know it all. I disappeared and live by myself mainly because some of my best fans turned into really weirdos and started stalking me. And I don’t dance at some club called Baby Dolls. God, you guys love to make up shit, don’t you. I repeat, I hate fucking swingers. I think they are sick people just looking for away to legally mess around on their mates..“

She also later wrote:

“Anyone can contact me at lorriemichaels@gmail.com if you have any questions. Just one comment. Someone tell this LC to go fuck themselves. I’m not married and I’ve never been a swinger.”

So I wrote her.  I asked her to do an interview and she declined.  I asked for a recent photograph to prove her identity and she emailed me back a picture.  I can tell by the photo that it is her and it is a non-professional photo that only she or someone close to her would have.  She has aged a bit and put on a little weight.  Don’t worry fellas she is still very much a babe.

She asked that I not publish the photo or post the email conversation we had.  What I can tell you is that Lori has left the business for good.  She is not married, lives alone, and is very concerned about her privacy.  She is not interested in an interview because  she wants to leave her past behind her and is also concerned about obsessed fans.  I will not post the photo so do not ask.  If you like you can email Lori yourself.

Lori Michaels

Marilyn Chambers Interview (1977)

A interview with Marlilyn from the Golden Age.  She talks about her fantasies and her career.  Remembering the Marilyn we all knew from a bygone era.

Marilyn Chambers, 1952-2009

Marilyn Chambers 1952-2009

A true icon of the adult film business has died.  Marilyn Chambers was found dead in her mobile home Sunday by her daughter McKenna.  She was a pioneer in adult entertainment and was one of the first adult film stars to become a household name.  Before there was Ginger or Jenna, there was Marilyn.  The cause of death is not known at this time.  I will post more as soon as I know.

Meanwhile here is a report I found about her death…

In 1972, a movie called Behind the Green Door proved that ordinary Americans would sit through a feature-length experimental art film with vague intimations of the occult, if it meant they got to watch Marilyn Chambers having sex. This was back when the porn industry was in effect cross-subsidizing the avant-garde film community, thus demonstrating its redeeming artistic merit and staying—sometimes—on the tolerant side of the law. In this case, the results were memorably strange: Chambers’ picture was based on a piece of folklore, but—as with the street poem that inspired another classic of lowbrow ’70s surrealism, Dolemite—it wasn’t the sort of folktale that ordinarily appeared on a movie screen.

Before that career-defining role, Chambers was best known as the model on the Ivory Snow soap box (advertised as “99 & 44/100 percent pure”). She went on to appear in David Cronenberg’s cult horror picture Rabid and a host of X-rated movies, and in 2004 she ran for vice president on the Personal Choice ticket, a spinoff of sorts from the Libertarian Party. She was later involved in the Boston Tea Party, another Libertarian offshoot, and in some states she served last year as the BTP’s vice-presidential candidate.

This past weekend she died of causes unknown, a week shy of her 57th birthday. She was, in her way, one of the cultural icons of 1970s America, and I hope she rests in peace.

Marilyn Chambers on the infamous Ivory Snow box

http://reason.com/blog/show/132873.html

Marilyn Chambers 1952-2009

Marilyn Chambers on the infamous Ivory Snow box

Marilyn Chambers 1952-2009

Jack Wrangler Dead at 62

Jack Wrangler Dead at 62

Jack Wrangler, the handsome gay porn star that everyone thought was bisexual, is dead. He was 62 and as handsome as ever. A life-long smoker, he recently had trouble with a lung disease that took his life after a long illness and died “peaceful and comfortable,” according to his doctor, Wendy S. Ziecheck. He should also be remembered as a tireless activist for AIDS/HIV causes.

Wrangler never hid behind the “bisexual” label, but let people think he was, especially since he had a longterm relationship with his wife, and other women, throughout his life.

I was part of a team that honored Wrangler into the Gay Erotic Video Awards Hall of Fame in 1992, and he put his bare feet and hand prints into the Porn Walk of Fame at the TomKat Theatre in West Hollywood, Calif. We got to spend some personal time together.

“I never hid behind saying I was ‘bisexual,’ I always knew I was more attracted to men,” Wrangler told me when we were awarding him the porn Hall of Fame award. “But I think there’s something to a gay man who has great sex with women—I think a lot more guys do that than talk about it, and it’s not necessarily bisexual.”

He married Margaret Whiting and very much loved her. In fact, she was at the awards show when we gave him his award (but they didn’t marry until 1994). He recently told Gay Wired:

“When I met Margaret, no one was more surprised than me when I fell in love with her. We knew right away. We became friends, and when we first started going together… I mean, I was out. I’m not straight, I’m not bisexual—I’m gay. When I got with Margaret, I knew I had to change course. She would have my bags packed and sitting outside the door when I got home at night and things like that. Plus I would go through massive guilt whenever I did go out with a guy and I was with her. So I finally said that’s it. I went to her one night and said I’m never going to cheat on you again with anybody. So my sex life became very masturbatory. And I’m good at that—very good at that, in fact.”

Wrangler did 85 porn videos, some of them straight, some of them gay. In fact, he’s one of the rare performers who went from the gay adult videos into hetero porn (when there was far less stigma to gay men doing that!)  He said he first had sex with a woman on film (in “China Sisters” in 1978). He was just always very sexual, and never had trouble getting it up for anyone or anything, he said.

He also told the Windy City Times:

“I just couldn’t live the gay lifestyle; it’s too hard to live. I’m very competitive, and with two guys having the same kind of thoughts, it’ll always be too hard for me. With a woman, there are different kinds of challenges because [ women ] come from a different place. Your interactions [ with women ] are always going to be surprising and different, whereas with a guy it’s one-on-one. It was just too hard; I tried it.”

Recently, at the GayVN Awards in San Francisco, the recent documentary “Wrangler, Anatomy of an Icon” by TLA Releasing, won Best Alternative Title, which is what they award to titles that are about the adult industry but aren’t really porn. A lot of the people shown in the documentary were in the audience that night, but not Wrangler, who was in New York, and heard about the win soon after it was announced.

Playwright Robert Patrick, porn directors Jerry Douglas and Chi Chi LaRue, porn star and director Gino Colbert, Hollywood funnyman Bruce Vilanch, journalist Michael Musto, porn star Joe Gage and many other friends of mine appear in the documentary.

Robert Patrick, my friend for more than a decade, not only performed with Wrangler, but authored the play, “T-Shirts” that they were in together. He wrote me this morning with the sad news and offered a picture that is in the slide show below.

“Jack, a Hollywood child (Marilyn Monroe baby-sat him), was getting nowhere much as an actor when a porn movie was offered him. He consulted with his father, a producer of “Bonanza,” who told him “just be the best.” Jack took his screen-name from his jeans and became the first identifiable personality on the tiny, blurry screens of gay porn. At a time when most “adult” actors wore socks and even masks, he created a persona modeled on the Marlboro man — butch. beautiful, and unashamed. And imitated! The gay “clone” look (plaid shirt, jeans) was inspired by Jack’s signature outfit. Having conquered gay porn with no real competition, he moved on to the more lucrative straight area.”

Before he got married he told Margaret he was gay, and she famously said, “Only around the edges, dear.” Wrangler himself told me, “It gets controversial with people always trying to label you, trying to understand you. I just let people think of me however they wanted, and I didn’t usually argue. People could fantasize about me however they wanted, that was just fine with me.”

Take a look at the video clips of Wrangler talking at one of this movie screenings, and below that is the trailer for the documentary. Also, I’ve compiled some of the more classic pictures of this handsome man, and see some personal photos, too.

http://www.examiner.com/x-3366-Bisexuality-Examiner~y2009m4d7-Jack-Wrangler-gay-porn-star-married-to-a-woman-is-dead-at-63

Houston Battling Cancer

Ex-Porn Star Houston

Houston is most famous for her adult film appearances including two large gangbang videos produced in the late 90’s.  She left the adult business around 2003 and recently was diagnosed with melanoma.  She is also a born-again Christian and is a member of the XXX Church, a religious organization that helps former adult performers and porn addicts.  Here is Houston’s story in her own words:

My story, upbringing and the problems I experienced are far too common.  A family history of alcoholism and abuse and a personal history of alcoholism and drug abuse rarely lead to good things.  You can walk into any strip club or porn set in the world and will find that 99% of the women have the same back story.  Through hard work, bad luck and a lot of pain I was able to take porn to a whole new level.  I achieved national and international success and experienced people, places and things most people only dream of.

Unfortunately, those incredible highs have also been offset by horrible lows, from medical drama to addiction, divorce, kids teasing my child and now cancer.

The world of porn is one that thrives on numbness typically created by drugs and alcohol.  The more numb you are, the more you are willing to do.  The more drunk and high you are, the crazier things you do and the more you get paid. It’s a vicious cycle.  Case in point, I had sex with 620 guys in a single day.  The event was a successful publicity stunt that won me an award for best selling video of all time.  That, along with the other movies and crazy stuff I did catapulted me to the top of the adult world. I was so deep into porn that I just took the ball and ran with it, doing more and more outrageous things.

Houston early in her career

I was a single parent living in LA, supporting my daughter by doing bachelor parties, bikini contests and mud wrestling. At the same time I was also getting into mainstream acting, but not making it big fast enough.  I was introduced to a porn agent and asked if I’d like to be in a porn video, they paid very well and I thought I had nothing to lose.  That week the producer called me and asked me if I would like to be an exclusive contract girl for their company. They would pay me $10,000 a month for several films.  I was so broke and struggling that there was no question in my mind. I didn’t think of anything but the fame and money, not God, disease, my family or anything.

By 2002, I was still living in LA.   I had bought a home in the San Fernando Valley, I was a featured stripper for 32 weeks a year all over the world. I was surviving on methamphetamines to keep going and was a complete mess. I was still doing porn and basically killing myself.  I had a nanny for my daughter who would take care of us both, I don’t know how she did it.  She said she prayed for me all of the time.

By now ten years had gone by and I had become one of the biggest porn stars in the history of the adult industry. I was an empty shell full of hate and sadness and I felt totally alone.  I contemplated suicide often and all the money in the world couldn’t make me feel happy or whole.  By that time in my life I had by then been brought to my knees on several occasions, praying to God to not let me die this time.  My heart would beat so fast that I know a couple times God stepped in and saved me.

I had enough and I knew couldn’t die and leave my daughter.  I decided to sell the house and move as far away as I could afford from my druggie friends and porn.  I retired after 10 years, having been inducted into the porn hall of fame.  I thought “my daughter and I can move to Vegas and start a new life,” and that’s what we did.  I couldn’t handle the fans and the people all over; I knew I would eventually overdose if I stayed in LA.

Later, I got my real estate license and was working for a home builder.  I had been working for them for a couple of years, trying not to wear a lot of makeup, dying my hair brown and even gaining some weight as to not get recognized. In April 2008, I was fired on the spot. Someone in the corporate office recognized me.  I was devastated, I worked so hard and was a great sales person. They said they just couldn’t have me on the front lines, even if that career was in the past.

Recent photo of Houston

That same month, I was diagnosed with stage III Melanoma Cancer.  I was in complete shock, I never had a growth removed or any kind of skin issues.  It was in my lymphatic system.  In July, I had extensive surgery to remove several lymph nodes in both my right and left arm.  I recovered for a month and then in August I was put on a drug [a form of chemo] for an entire month, intravenously, everyday.  I now give myself injections at home three times a week for the remaining 11 months.  It’s a year of treatment and the percentages of survival are not good… but my attitude is.     Everyday I put on my armor when I get up.  I will beat this demon, I have beat worse. I know that I am special and God is going to use me to help others. God has something for me that I can’t even imagine.

My story is one of hope, that people can change, that women and men in porn have a choice and they don’t have to be violated or exploit themselves in order to feel accepted and loved.  There are people to help and love them unconditionally, to show them God is love.  I am growing in God everyday and will continue to learn and grow in the church.  I cannot change the past, but the past does not make my future. Everyone needs to know God is a loving God and He will love you.

I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior and vowed to never be a part of the world that I had lived in before.  I have asked for forgiveness and know that I am worthy. My daughter has been attending a new church for 7 months and I started going about 4 months ago.  It’s a wonderful church and we love it.  I found out about XXXChurch there and wanted to get involved from the minute I found out about what they were doing.  I want to help these girls see that they don’t have to go that route…and if I can do it, so can they.

Houston

Recent photo of Houston

Houston early in her career

Houston from recent appearance on the Howard Stern Show

http://xxxchurch.com/blogs/news/kimberly.html

http://helphoustonfight.blogspot.com/

Jenna Jameson Gives Birth To Twin Boys

Jenna Jameson and Tito Ortiz

Adult movie star Jenna Jameson and her Ultimate Fighter boyfriend are parents of twins, according to Us magazine.

Jameson, 34, the star of films such as “Fantasm” and “I Dream of Jenna,” delivered two baby boys on Monday morning, the magazine reported.

“They’re in very good health,” her rep told the magazine.

Jameson announced in May that she and boyfriend Tito Ortiz — a mixed martial arts fighter — would be having babies. The magazine reported that a source said the boys are “in very good health.”

Jameson had miscarried in November 2004 one day after she was diagnosed with malignant melanoma.

A self-described Catholic, Jameson has said that she felt having a baby was “God’s plan,” according to Us. But she has said she had no plans to wed her boyfriend anytime soon.

“I think I’m gonna stay unmarried and just go for the babies!” she told Us. “I’m following in Angelina’s footsteps!”

In recent years, Jameson has branched out beyond the daily grind. She is the author of “How to Make Love Like a Porn Star.”

Back in February, Jameson launched a perfume called “Heartbreaker,” which the New York Daily News described as a “heady scent with undertones of vanilla, latex and skank.”

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/29727520/

Jenna Jameson and Tito Ortiz